ok, for real though

OK so now I feel bad for complaining. I am very blessed to be pregnant and to have had such an easy pregnancy. No complications, no swelling, etc... I know 3 people now that have been trying to get pregnant and can't. It doesn't seem fair and I don't understand it. It is a huge miracle, as Michelle was saying in her blog. I DO realize how fortunate I am to be able to start a family when I want to. I actually AM excited. Just scared and pessimistic. Some things never change. Anyway, I felt guilty after that last post. So there.

2 weeks left

I am due in 2 weeks and 4 days. Its getting close! I'm trying to stay positive. All this baby stuff and breastfeeding stuff grosses me out. I don't know how I am going to deal with it when it really happens. I got a free DVD in the mail about how to breast feed and how to bathe a newborn with their nast belly buttons that haven't fallen off yet. I started crying because I was so disgusted with it all. It's a good think I'm not a single mom or my kid wouldn't have a chance. I really don't see the "beauty" in all of this. My body is nasty and stretched. I've never seen so many stretch marks in one area at a time before. I can't walk normally because it hurts to. So how about you keep the waddling jokes to yourself? Seriously...
So if anyone has any suggestions on how to get over this feel free to let me in on it. Oh- the master bedroom is almost done. I painted the baseboard in the closet. Thats it. I told Brian I have never painted before so he summoned me to the closet. haha Fine with me. Anyway, I'm in a complaining mood. Just ignore this blog. I'll get over myself soon enough