Hair

Is it really that bad to get highlights in your hair while you are pregnant? The color never touches your scalp. The fumes can't be deadly because what about all the pregnant hair dressers that work with that stuff everyday? *sigh* whatever.
So Brian had a dream that we had a girl. But then she was kidnapped. I guess we got her back. He wasn't totally awake when he was telling be about it. Weird huh?

oh the pain. . .

Yesterday I couldn't go to work because my stomach hurt so much and if I tried to walk, it made it worse. It started at 3:00AM. By about 7pm-ish Brian called my doctor. The doctor said it could possibly be a tubal pregnancy, but since there was no bleeding then who knows. This morning when I woke up it was as if nothing ever happened. It was so weird. Two people suggested it might be ligaments stretching out, but I am only 8 weeks! Who knows. I'm just happy I am not in pain. It was probably nothing and I just have a low tolerence to pain or something. Granted- if that were true, I would never admit it. So it must have been something REALLY bad. ;) Anybody have any suggestions what it might have been? It's happened once before, but didn't last as long and wasn't as painful. Oh- theres a picture of what my body is supposed to look like at this stage. I will find it because I know you all care SO much about that. *snicker snicker*

Work party

Brian's work had a Christmas party on Saturday. It was pretty neat-o. We went to Hale Center Theater to eat. Famous Daves catered. (I couldn't eat the meat, so I piled on the potato salad.) Brians boss, Arden, is very generous. He gave all his employees $100 to spend on their wives. How cool is that? So Brian got me a gift certificate to the mall since I couldn't think of anything I wanted. Then there is a gift game where Arden puts all these presents in the middle of the room and everyone takes turns picking one and unwrapping it. If they don't pick from the middle, they can steal what someone else picked, but it can only be stolen three times. So we got a super soft blanket and a set of tools with a tape measure. THEN he puts out a whole bunch of gift certificates to different places- restaurants, clothing stores, hardware stores, etc- and the same game is played. Brian got a card to Lowes and I got one for Cinimark movies. Is that spelled right? After we ate and did the presents and the white elephant game, we went across the street to watch Tran-Siberian Orchestra. It was quite the show! pretty neat-o. The lights from the light show hurt my eyes and my stomach hurt the whole time, but it was certainly entertaining. :) How cool is it that we got all this stuff for free?! its frickin awesome, thats what it is. How did I get so lucky?

1st Visit

I went to the doctor today for my first check-up. No pap smear. YEA! Is that even spelled right? He just told me that being tired and gassy was normal then handed me a plastic bag full of parenting magazines and prenatal vitamin samples and sent me on my way. Am I supposed to takke ALL the pills, or what? Stupid doctor. well, stupid me for not thinking to ask about prenatal vitamins. I forgot, even though I had plenty of time to think of questions while sitting in a tiny cramped room with statues of a uterus and what not. After about 25 minutes of twiddling my thumbs I called Brian and told him I was leaving and how ridiculous it was to be waiting that long and bla bla bla and I almost started crying, then the doctor walked in. *sigh* So I got myself all riled up for no real reason and forgot all the questions I had until I was sitting in my car alone once again.

OH BABY

Hi. I am trying to see if this works. Guess what everyone! I'm pregnant. yep.

Here is what my baby looks like right now. Pretty crazy. Here's what the website says about it if you are interested.

Although he still resembles a tiny alien, your baby's facial features are starting to form. Arms, legs, hands, and feet are taking shape, although they don't yet have fingers and toes. The brain is growing more complex; if you looked through a microscope, it would be clearly visible through the transparent skull. The embryo has started to move in small jerks, although you won't feel these until the fourth month

Just for the record, this will be my first and last child. :)

Happy Halloween!

We had a halloween part and it was lots of fun! If you didn't come then you totally missed out. Ok, so it didn't get SUPER fun until everybody joined in a riatous round of darts. Then it was fun to make fun of how bad we all suck at the game. Except for a select few.. like me.. It's a good thing Brian doesn't mind all the holes in the wall surrounding the dart board. We are lucky it wasn't Brandon's house. I'm surprised his house didn't get more destroyed with how often we hung out there. I miss his house. and everyones company. It was fun sitting around after midnight being too tired to do much of anything but not tired enough to kick people out. I had missed staying up listening to Elisabeth and others make fun of people they work with and what not because then you get somewhat of an idea of what goes on their secretive lives.
I realized something today. I haven't thought about suicide for a few years now! I thought it was normal and that everyone did and that everyone thought out ways of going through with it. Then I talked to my sister about it because I was wondering what ways she had thought about doing that to herself. She looked at me like I was crazy. I bet she doesn't even remember. It was a long time ago. After that I never told anyone else about my weird thoughts and feelings. Who knew it was all just a weird chemical imbalance in my brain! Is that even spelled right? The point to all this is that I am happier than ever and even on down days I don't even consider death. I never planned on going through with it, it was just something I would think about back in the day. Why am I writing about this?

1 Year Baby!

My first wedding anniversary is coming up. What the heck are you supposed to get for a guy for a romantical kind of a day? And what are you supposed to do? (besides that)
I suggested we go to Lagoon or the circus, but maybe that's not the sort of thing you're supposed to do for your very first anniversary. If you have any suggestions, please help. It is this weekend.

I feel like this lovely toad

My Jaw hurts. I have cramps. I'm tired. I get to go to another dentist in the morning. WooHoo! Life is good otherwise. Any suggestions for bloating? It IS a real thing right? Sometimes I wonder if I am using "bloating" as an excuse for not being able to fit into my clothes anymore but I guess if you bloat, it's not a 24-7 sort of a thing. but I think this time I really am.

Celebrity Duets

I had a dream a few weeks ago. It was awesome. Travis, Elisabeth, Dave, Brandon and Sara were all in it. I can't remember it all that well anymore. I just remember being impressed when Travis came out on the stage and sang a solo. He was SO good! We were all cheering. Elisabeth and I did some dance on the stage with a bunch of other people but I didn't know what I was doing. Then it was my turn to sing and I didn't even know I was going to be singing. So I go up in front of this huge crowd and smy DREAMS won't even let me sing well! It was awful and I was so embarrassed. Then everyone was leaving and I wanted to go to Elisabeth's house but she moved to St George. I was sad and decided to try to go anyway. It was like a blizzard outside and my car was sliding everywhere and I was bumping into other cars and stuff and then my car turned into a little thing, like a go cart. So I was exposed to the snow and trying to push it along the road! I don't think I ever made it to her house. I was sad when I woke up. Weird, huh? Anybody know what THAT kind of dream would mean?

TODAY

I went to work today. There were tons of technical difficulties this morning. I left work at 2:30pm. Went grocery shopping with my sister in law and her baby. We once again realized we are both sort of air-heads. I think it only happens when we are together though. Separated, we are fine. Together? Not so good. Then I came home. actually I cruised by my husbands work site to see if I could get a glimpe of him, but alas, it was to no avail. I feel like a stalker when I do that but its ok if you are married to the person, right? My oldest sister used to drive my her x-bf's houses. I was with her once or twice. Thats totally weird. but not to your own spouse, right? Anyway, we got some movies I am excited to see. Poisiden, a dancing one, and a violent one. I don't remember the names. heh. Oh, the Sentinel. ya. Woo! So thats my excitement for the day. I will report again when something equally exciting happens.

Dentists

I am going to have a root canal done and I just can't wait! I love having drills and strange instruments enter my mouth while I blindly sit back and gag on my own spit and other strange particles and liquids. Then I get to leave the wonderful office broke and drooling while the side of my face droops and my tounge takes on its own life. *sigh* what could be better? Ohh I know. Going back for the next appointment! yippeee!

BABIES

I am with Tammy Tinkle while she is watching a sweet little bundle of poop. Right when I think that I might want to have kids, I deal with an 18 month old cranky little boy. ARG... Plus I have to read about how painful it is in Glamour Magazine. Reliable source I know. The pain measurement was right up there with getting genital warts removed. SICK. I know you all wanted to know that. heh heh. Perhaps someday I will experience the strange feeling of something growing inside my gut other than air pockets and such. It will most likely have to be accidental though. And don't even tell me you think a fetus is cute. Amazing, perhaps, weird, definetly, but cute? no.

Turbo Jam

This is the girl that does turbo jam. She has her own blog. weird, huh? Its weird to think of people on work out videos as real people I guess. http://chalenejohnson.blogspot.com/

The only problem is that we have TV in the bedroom and there's not enough room to work out in the bedroom and so if anyone has room in their home to do this with me, well then.... you should let me. :) Who wouldn't want to look like her?! Seriously. It's a fun video.

HAPpy... hapPY...

I need to be more positive. I enjoy being married. In fact, I've never been happier in my life. So whats my problem? I appreciate the advice I got from my last entry. I think I will have to use a little money on some of those things even if it's not something you can invest in to profit from later. I can profit from things in different ways than making money off things. So yes, I think I will have to talk to my husband (that word is still weird sometimes) about some things that I would like to purchase. We'll see how it goes.
So... Anyone want to do Turbo Jam with me? Its a lot fun but I have a better chance of doing that when someone else does it with me. :)

married life

Things have seemed to change now that I am married. I went to Dave's birthday party and it was the first time I saw some of my friends for awhile. It almost felt akward. It's like people don't want to have anything to do with you if you are not single anymore. I don't know why. SOMEone even said they didn't bother transfering my phone number into their new phone is because I'm not worth calling anymore. Thats when I say, "oh ya?! well screw YOU!" ok so I didn't really say that this time, but I should have. I've been so angry lately but I can't figure out why. I think part of it has to do with money. I hate not being able to just go do stuff that I want to do. Plus I don't excercise anymore. I miss dancing and rock climbing. Those were some of my absolute favorite things to do, but now thats over. I don't see how I will ever go back to school again. Any money we get will go towards buying a new house to fix up and sell to make more money, but by that time we will probably have kids that will be sucking up any money and then I REALLY won't ever have my own life again. AHHH!!! Is it wrong to be so selfish to not want kids so that you can progress in life?? Once I have kids I'm afraid my life will be pretty much done. Then I will just be a mom. I know mom's are important obviously, but they never have their own life back again. They never get to enjoy their own hobbies or interests unless it invloves changing diapers and diciplining bad children. I've gotta stop I'm getting depressed just thinking about it.