Sunday, June 18, 2006
married life
Things have seemed to change now that I am married. I went to Dave's birthday party and it was the first time I saw some of my friends for awhile. It almost felt akward. It's like people don't want to have anything to do with you if you are not single anymore. I don't know why. SOMEone even said they didn't bother transfering my phone number into their new phone is because I'm not worth calling anymore. Thats when I say, "oh ya?! well screw YOU!" ok so I didn't really say that this time, but I should have. I've been so angry lately but I can't figure out why. I think part of it has to do with money. I hate not being able to just go do stuff that I want to do. Plus I don't excercise anymore. I miss dancing and rock climbing. Those were some of my absolute favorite things to do, but now thats over. I don't see how I will ever go back to school again. Any money we get will go towards buying a new house to fix up and sell to make more money, but by that time we will probably have kids that will be sucking up any money and then I REALLY won't ever have my own life again. AHHH!!! Is it wrong to be so selfish to not want kids so that you can progress in life?? Once I have kids I'm afraid my life will be pretty much done. Then I will just be a mom. I know mom's are important obviously, but they never have their own life back again. They never get to enjoy their own hobbies or interests unless it invloves changing diapers and diciplining bad children. I've gotta stop I'm getting depressed just thinking about it.
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I just want you to know that i did change your number over when i got my new phone. I don't think that there is anything wrong with wanting to progress in life, actually i think it is very important fro women to get and education and to have their own goals and hobbies. Life doesn't have to end with motherhood, it just changes a bit i think.
Not that I'm an expert... I think you should find something that you really love to do and hold to it even when you have kids. If you love to rock-climb or dance or whatever it is, make it a priority to do that sometimes. I think that's what keeps you sane when you do have kids. I think it would have solved a lot of problems in my house growing up if my mom had made some time just for her. Just my opinion.
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