Monday, April 16, 2007
patience
It seems like my pregnancy has flown by. Probably because I don't feel ready for him to come in any way. We don't even have anywhere for him to sleep! There's no room in the bedroom we are using right now, and the other bedroom is torn to pieces. But thats not really what I'm so concerned about. I'm getting worried that I won't have the patience to deal with a baby EVERYDAY. I remember after working at the daycare I'd come home exhausted and enjoy the quiet. You can't "go home" from watching your own baby. I'm afraid I will be selfish without realizing it and not give the baby enough care or attention that he may need. I can handle the fact that my body will never be the same again, but what if I completely let myself go? I have so many things going on in my head I don't know how to sort them so I try to ignore them because nothing can be done about it anyway. I need to realize that I am in control of my life for the most part. My actions and my feelings are determined soley by me. I've never been good at taking on responsibility for anything.
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at least you have an honest relationship w/ reality... most people, especially mommies dreaming of pink and blue ruffly thingies, don't give a thought to what's coming. reality is, it's really hard!!! but you know, those kids in daycare didn't have your eyes and dad's nose. when people go on and on about how "jr went on a swing for the very first time!" and you start to doze off... that will be you bragging about your kids. and it will just make your day! you wont care that the person listening to you is falling asleep b/c you'll be so darn in love w/ your baby! it really is a love/hate relationship. if you need a break, give me a call.
p.s. breastfeeding works wonders for your weight. (it takes more energy to feed the kid than to make it! really! plus you won't want to eat anything bad b/c it'll go to the babe)
ok i'll shut up now
Just remember that:
1. Daycare kids are terrors
2. This is your child it will be different.
3. You have Brian to help you.
4. I have faith that you will be a fantastic mommy!
5. Auntie Trisha is only 6 hours away!
Tarrrrrrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! This is Lindsay!!!!! Dude you are so lucky to be pregnant. If you decide you aren't up for the job, I'll gladly take the rugrat. CONGRATS!!!!!!
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