Life is Good

That last post was so annoying I just had to say that despite the occasional bad week, I really do enjoy my life.  All I have to do is look around at other peoples circumstances and see how blessed I am.  I love my kids more than anything.  They alone have brought meaning and purpose to my life.  For the first time I feel like a have a reason to keep going.  I have a huge responsibility!  These little people need me to teach them how to live productive happy lives to the best of my ability.  In the mean time they are trying ever so hard to teach me patience and culinary skills.  Both of which have a long way to go.  Often I wonder why I am so blessed to have such a full life.  My pregnancies were both normal and problem free.  Our family doesn't depend on me to go to work so I am able to stay home and take care of the kids and not worry about others raising them at an age when they can't even speak yet.  My kids are both healthy and well behaved - for the most part. We have a HOUSE. Not a tiny apartment.  I was going through a phase of being sure we needed more space since I felt our house was way too small.  Then I did a jeans party for a friend of mine.  She has two kids the same ages as my two kids. She lives in a very small 2 bedroom condo.  The kitchen is the same size as my hallway here.  You walk in the front door and you can see their entire living space.  I would go absolutely crazy! Ever since then I have felt guilty for wanting more. 

   I love my husband very much.  The kids love him too. :)  They love having him chase and tickle them.  They love when he pushes them around on a bike or bounces a ball with them.  I am so happy that he gives them attention and tells them he loves them.  He is a great dad.  I wouldn't hate how often he is gone if I didn't love him so much and want to be around him all the time.  It's amazing how angry and stressed I can be and then if he tries, he can melt it all away for me in minutes.

Today is the forth of July. What a great country.  As I am writing this I swear I smell hot dogs bbq-ing somewhere.  We are going to Brian's parents for fireworks and a BBQ tonight.  Right now Brian is doing service for hunting.  Not sure when he'll be back.  I guess I should get back to cleaning.